I have spent some time looking at my search history to figure out where I read what I’m going to talk about with no luck. My closest guess is going to be EJ or FB where someone wrote about her ashtanga practice, and how she found out it was detrimental to practice with her eyes closed. I close my eyes during practice a lot. Whenever it seems like I’m going to bail, I close my eyes and “focus inward”. Apparently that is the mumbo jumbo equivalent of checking out. So today I concentrated on keeping my eyes open, looking far ahead during the pseudo jump through, and so on. By the time Navasana came around (what is it with by the time Navasana comes…??!) I was feeling overwhelmed slash over stimulated slash anxious and frustrated with my lack of progress with core strength, so I decide to go half primary today. I do UD and then feel a little queasy during an abbreviated Paschimottanasana. I’m heading to shoulderstand and did not make it up, because I had to find the toilet. I was telling teacher afterwards that I was probably holding my breath in a loony shot at holding Navasana and maybe that’s why I got barfy. But later in the car I wondered if it was a physical manifestation of my discomfort with the first attempt at actually showing up for every difficult moment in my practice without closing my eyes….